Ashvi
My eyes opened to the shining rays of the sun.
And what am I seeing as soon as I open my eyes?
Blue Roses? Naah. Looking at the one who gives me blue roses every day.
Siddharth.
Yes. He is sleeping just next to me. with me. In the same bed. Inside the same blanket.
When I opened my eyes last night, I was scared to find darkness all around me.
I became very nervous and sat frozen on the shore.
I didn't know what to do, and I just started crying. After a few seconds I remembered that this time I was not alone.
Earlier I used to be alone but now I have my husband, Siddharth.
Earlier, I was not able to call anyone to come to help me of those darkness because there was no one who could bring light into my life.
But now, I have my husband. Who brought the light of his love into my life which is full of painful darkness.
I called out to Siddharth and sat quietly waiting for him.
But at the same time, along with fear, this thought was also going on in my mind that he would not come. He must have slept.
I thought he had fallen asleep.
But I sat quietly in that darkness and just waited for him.
I knew he was not going to come but still I didn't know why I was waiting for him.
I had never waited for anyone before to take me out of that dark room, but I waited for him last night.
I sat curled up in that dark room and was just looking towards the door hoping that maybe Siddharth would come now.
For the first time, I had hoped that now someone would come to save me from this darkness.
And my hope came true. He came.
Siddharth came running and opened the door with force.
As soon as I found him standing at the door, I became so emotional and tears started flowing from my eyes. And I realized that whether someone comes to help me or not, he will definitely come.
He had really come.
for the first time someone had really come to save me from this darkness.
I tried to get up and go to him but my legs were jammed and I failed.
I remained sitting there in the same place.
Seeing me struggling, he first switched on the lights and then came running towards me.
And seeing him standing in front of me, I could not control myself.
I surrendered myself and threw myself on him.
I kept my head slightly under his chest and was just crying, holding him from all sides.
And he was continuously caressing my back so that I could calm down but I was so scared that I was not able to calm down.
It is true that I find comfort in his arms.
No, actually my home is in his arms.
The peace that I got after coming out of that darkness, can only be given to me by his arms.
Coming into his arms last night was like giving life back to a dead person.
I was completely trembling at that time.
After calming me down, he put me to sleep and covered me with a blanket.
He was sitting next to me because I was so scared that I was not leaving his hand.
But after some time when he released his hand, I got scared again thinking that he was leaving me but I came back to normal when he kissed me on my forehead.
And that one kiss was enough to take me to a different world.
It felt as if that one kiss took away all my worries from me.
When he released my hand, I felt very strange and bad, as if someone was snatching something precious from me.
But when he kissed me on the forehead, I felt a sense of relief.
Not just last night's kiss, I felt every kiss that he gave me at the time when I was at my lowest.
After dad left this world, when my situation had worsened, when I was not talking to anyone, when my health had deteriorated.
He thought that I was sleeping all the time in my room. No. I used to think only about my dad all the time.
The whole day and night I lay in bed with eyes closed and just thought about how all this happened to him, what will happen to me now, what will my family do with me now. Because till that time they all had stayed because of father, but now even he is no more, so will they all kill me?
Such thoughts were running in my mind when Siddharth entered the room.
Then he used to sit next to me and talk to me all the time, holding my hand.
At that time he only asked for my safety and happiness.
He thought I was sleeping. But no. I used to listen to all his talks.
I used to feel all his concerns deeply.
To tell the truth, I felt his love for me very keenly in my worst times.
Yes. I felt his love for me.
I remember every single thing he did during that time, How he used to get clothes ready for me. How he used to feed me medicine with his own hand.
How he used to talk about me to himself. How he used to wait for me to get up and talk to him.
He knew that I would get up and not talk to him but still he waited for me.
He has always waited for me without forcing me.
Yes. I know all that, I just pretended to be ignorant.
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He is just sleeping next to me..
When last night he moved to leave after kissing me on the forehead, I saw him moving away from me and I immediately held his hand to stop him.
He turned back and started looking at me.
"What's the matter, Ashvi?" He asked.
"Don't go. Just stay here for tonight. right here with me" I said while holding his hand and looking into his eyes.
I took a deep breath "Please, sleep here wi- with me. Just for tonight" I said.
He stood there for a few seconds and thought.
After that he came close to me and sat next to me on the bed and said "I am right here, don't worry"
He threw the blanket aside, lay down on the bed, covered himself with the same blanket.
Yes, with the same blanket with which I was also covered. And said while facing me "sleep well, I am here"
Now the time has come to tell a very big thing.
My hand is tied with his hand.
Yes, my hand is tied to his hand, and that too not with anything else but with my bow.
I don't know when he did all this. And I had lost this red bow many weeks ago, I had searched my entire wardrobe but I could not find it. So how did he get this?
What kind of relationship am I in, where I am feeling comfortable with the person who forced me into this relationship?
I wake up early just to see the same person every morning, because if he leaves, I will be able to see him again only at night.
I had never cooked in my entire life. But I learned to cook for that person and made his favorite aloo gobi.
I, who had never worried about my looks all my life, have now started dressing up just for that same person.
I, who had lived my entire life without waiting for anyone, Now i have started waiting for him.
What has happened to me, Siddharth? What have you done to me? What kind of feeling is this, Siddharth, that is forcing me to do all this.
You know that I don't like putting my efforts on others at all, because I know that in the end I will be the one who gets hurt.
Then why am I doing all this?
My health is absolutely fine. My mind is also in the right place. I am not even having mood swings. Then why? Why do I feel this way about you?
Am I feeling something for you Siddharth?
No, right? No. I can not. No.
No. I don't feel anything like that for you. And I can never, right Siddharath?
I was thinking about all this when he turned towards me. And here I lost my heart. White T-shirt, messy hair, innocent face, those close clever eyes.
Now please tell me god how can I not feel anything after seeing all this.
I know he forced me to marry him. But what about his behavior towards me after that?
He did all this to save his reputation. I know that he did not do the right thing. Perhaps at that time he had no other option but to do so.
That was the past which I cannot change right now. But the things he is doing now for me are admirable. I can never forget what he has done for me.
I will never forget each and every effort of his, Not even till death.
Preparing breakfast for me every morning, waking up every morning and finding Blue Roses for me and keeping it in my room.
Staying awake the whole night and sitting at one place because I slept with my head on his lap. Remembering all my favorite things.
Banish all the money plants from the garden and replace them with lilies, sun flowers and frangipani. Who can do all this, only Siddharth.
Something is really happening to me. What am I doing, why am I praising him?
I am just praising him, there is no crime in it, right?
Yes, there is no crime in this. I'm just praising him because he deserves it.
I came out of my thoughts again when he took his hand below his ear due to which my hand also went with his.
And my hand is placed below his ear.
How can someone be so adorable?
It's the same person, just with two faces.
If he keeps his eyes closed then he looks cute and if he keeps his eyes open then he is clever. This is the difference.
What has happened to me, Why am I only thinking about him?
Yes. I know I like him.
do i do? do i just like him?
After a very long beep in my ear.
I don't just like him, maybe there is something more than that.
I didn't do all that for him just because he made efforts for me.
I didn't do all that because I liked him.
Do I lov- No. No. Never. I can't do this ever.
I just like him, just like him, Nothing more than this and nothing less than this. I just like him. Calm down your mind Ashvi. Calm down.
No. There is another option, do I have a crush on him? Naah, This can't be possible.
I have gone mad, this can't happen.
Only then he opened his eyes. His eyes are only half open and just looking only at me.
"Today you woke up before me" He spoke in his sleepy voice.
And believe me, his sleepy voice is as sexy as hell. I am becoming weak just listening to his voice.
"Why did you tie our hands together?" I asked while looking at our hands.
As soon as he heard this question, he brought our hands between our heads.
"I was afraid that I might accidentally let go of your hand" And after hearing this from him, I realised why I am liking him.
I mean, now you think that he kept my hand tied with his throughout the night because I had forbidden him to leave my hand.
It's not my fault that I like him. Because how can anyone not like this person?
I feel bad that he puts so much effort into our relationship and I can't give him anything in return. What I mean by saying is that he says he loves me, which he clearly shows to me. But why am I getting confused about my feelings?
Why does it become so difficult to understand the condition of one's own heart?
Here he has sacrificed everything for me and I am the one who till date has not been able to understand what I feel for him.
"Why are you putting so much effort on me? To keep me happy? To keep me safe? You know that all your efforts are just going waste" I finally asked him.
"I am a business man, I like to take risks. I will take no matter how big the risk is to achieve my goal.
And the goal of my life is that I have to keep my wife happy and safe, for the rest of my life. So if my efforts are being wasted then so be it. Who cares about the result? Me?" He smiled "I never asked for the result" he said.
"Am I a bad girl, Siddharth?" I asks.
"Angels are not bad, Ashvi" he said.
I will cry. If he says anything else. What should I do, god, please give me some way. I am demanding a better way for myself, because I am feeling happy. Listen to all this and at the same time, I am confused as to why I am feeling happy.
Arghh, There is too much confusion.
"do you know wha-
"Hmm what?" He came closer.
And feeling him coming closer generated goosebumps in my entire body.
Why is he coming closer, has he forgotten that we are lying on the same bed, under the same blanket, with our hands tied together.
No matter how much I try to control myself, he always does something that makes me scared that I might lose my control.
Me sliding back "W- why are you coming closer, go back" i said. And what the hell happens to this voice of mine? Why do I start stammering in such situations?
He stopped. And started looking at me.
“Why should I go back? You are my wife" And he started coming even closer.
This guy is driving me completely crazy. Does he know that by coming closer to him I am losing all my control?
Is he doing all this deliberately? Is this his only purpose, to make me lose my control over myself? I guess I'm right.
"Si- siddharth, go back right now!" I yelled loudly.
"I will not go. I won't go away from you anymore" He also yelled.
I slipped back "Go, I said" I yelled.
"No" he yelled.
"Siddh- aaaa" I had slipped back so much that I didn't even realize that I was at the very end of the bed. And I was about to fall from the bed when Siddharth immediately held my waist and pulled me towards himself.
"That's why I was not going away from you" He is so close to me that I'm feeling his breath.
His hand is on my bare waist. His face just in front of mine. My feet touching his feet. I am so close to him that at this moment I can lose not only my control but everything.
Because the arrows in the eyes have now been hit. The heartbeat has increased. The distances have disappeared. And the barrier has been broken.
I got up slightly and placed my face on his face. I don't do anything except make one mistake, Kiss him.
I don't know how I went so far as to kiss him on his lips.
I closed my eyes and gave a peck on his lips. I myself don't know why I did it and how I did it. I Just did it.
God, I am telling you the truth, this was all his fault, not mine. He came close to me and forced me to kiss him. He is the one who forced me. This is his fault.
I was controlling myself for so long, he broke all my patience and took away the kiss from me.
No. It's not his fault but mine.
I should not have made him sleep with me in the bed. Neither would I have asked him to sleep in the same bed with me nor would all this have happened.
God, what have I done? My lip slipped but you could have stopped all this from happening.
Sometimes you also don't do your duty property, god.
I separated my face from his face with my eyes closed.
And slowly opened my eyes. And as soon as I saw his reaction and started regretting my action.
His eyes have come out due to shock, his lips are in the same position in which I left, one hand is tied on one side along with my hand, The other hand is lying on the other side, my hand is placed on his chest and my half body is on his right side body.
What do I do now? I have made a mistake. Whom should I ask for forgiveness from God or him.
Today I feel like I wish I had a anywhare door, So that I would immediately go to another world, far away from Siddharth.
I feel like I will die of shame. I feel like crying.
No problem, Ashvi, apologize to your husband. Apologize to your husband for kissing him. (Wtf I am thinking inside my mind Now I'll have to apologize after kissing my own husband, one and only husband. What kind of situation have I created?)
No problem, apologizing won't make my height even smaller. I will apologize and end the matter. Ok ok. I am going to apologize now.
1.2.3 Why should I apologize, I have not done anything wrong. Yes. I asked him to sleep in the same bed with me But I did not ask him to come close to me and help me. So technically it is his fault. Not mine.
Yes, it's his fa- But he also didn't ask me to kiss him, I went blank for a few seconds.
after realising, so is it my fault?
Maybe yes. This is my fault.
I will have to apologize. Shitt.
Let's count.
I took a deep breath. And started counting in my mind. 1.2.
I was about to finish the count and had only one digit left when he placed his left hand on my waist and grabbed me completely and turned me to the other side of the bed.
And then he came on top of me.
And then something started which should not have happened.
He held my open hand with his own hand and placed it above my head. And started kissing.
Not peck but French.
The moment our lips met, I felt like I am in heaven, the feeling I'm feeling is just so good. I can’t get enough. He is kissing me as if I am completely his.
His lips, their taste, how they felt against my own. The feeling it is felt like electricity, The electricity that is running throughout my body. That electricity which has started but is not showing signs of stopping. I feel as if I am in heaven. This kiss has taken me to a different and more beautiful world. Within a few seconds, I have become so addicted to this moment that now I do not want Siddharth to stop.
What has happened to me that I am not waiting for him to stop? Am I really crazy about him? Am I really starting to feel something towards him? Not for the purpose of the person you like, but perhaps more than that. Am I starting to feel something for him in a romantic way?
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A/N
Hello everyone, how are you all? Good? I hope.
Please all of you try to remain happy and safe. And also take care of your health.
I am also trying to do the same.
The story is progressing slowly. Some twists and turns are left to come. But I am facing some problems due to lack of time.
But no problem, we will find a solution for that too soon.
Tab tak ke liye by. See you soon. Take care.
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